Holiday

Feeling so unsettled and utterly lost, beyond some credible explanation or good reason. Still here, where else? Thru this long, no-sleep night, wary of my own dreams and state of mind - can I ask the universe for just a hug?Of course, feeling no arms embrace, no quiet words, it's still okay. I can imagine some comfort, some caring, as if there is a special way, or some order to this cloudless sky, some code for relief just to get me to the next promised sunrise, another day of possibilities. So, this unnerving solitude is only a subjective scourge, but where is the kindness and holiday in the world? In the hard, brash news there is more despair, more random suffering. Maybe sleep isn't important now, maybe just holding on, this long night alone.